Wishing for my death or a World War. Either will do. Because FML or this world.
Shhh. Don’t give them ideas
When I was working on my PhD. I stopped accessing papers from the publishers’ website. Each download incurs cost to the university. Instead I used sci-hub practically all the time. These publishers are the leeches.
These publishers are like bridge trolls. They didn’t contribute anything to publishing papers or pay the authors or editors of the papers. Yet they expect people to pay toll to access the papers.
So cute that it broke me into pieces.
I would have jumped just to spite them. They get to kiss, while I only get to be lonely. /s
I am not Turkish. Please don’t assume. I was just celebrating the fact Turkish people love cats. Why do you have to be so negative about every one?
Well, he is Turkish. It stands to reason he has a cat.
Start wearing crotch guard every night.
And the funny part is that they don’t have it too good. Disability reserved parking is one of the few ways the society tries to make their lives not suck as much.
Dungeons of Hinterburg might fit the bill. Just released. Looks and plays well. It is an action rpg with social sim elements set in the Alps.
Emotional support prostitute. Yes, it is medicinal.
I wish I could believe that I made someone’s life better. Honestly, considering none of my friend contact me and I am always the one to initiate the contact tells me otherwise.
I ‘attempted’ suicide last Friday. It was more a pathetic gesture than an attempt. I was hospitalized for about a day. So, the protocol was to put the patient in ICU in cases of poisoning. I cannot talk to anyone for the duration because no one was allowed to see me. So, in essence, I was left alone with my thoughts. It was the worst. I realized that people aren’t unkind, just that we are taught that, to be ‘professional’. In fact, I think nowadays, we are actively removing humanities component of every subject to ever exist, in pursuit of efficiency and also, maybe to make the subject stand on its own merits.
Another realization is that I think the rule makers think they stand far above rule followers. They don’t care about rule followers, only make rules to reduce their problems by controlling rule followers.
Honestly, I have been feeling like ghost for far longer than I care to admit. I cannot share my sadness with anyone because there is no one to share it with. Not because people are unkind, but they don’t have time or attention to spare on me. I am a patient to be treated for someone, an interview candidate for someone else, a contractor for someone else, a client for others and so on. But, I am not a human being for any of them. I feel dehumanized to the point of being a ghost.
I wish a call could fill my life as this tree. Maybe, I am really a terrible person.
Thing about RDR is that challenges are a pain to complete. It also holds true for RDR2. I never bother with them.
LinkedIn and Microsoft has been shady for a long time. I refuse to write any posts on LinkedIn. I am not desperate for attention.